Operating on EMPTY…
Recently I had what my doctor of chiropractic care called a ‘visceral reaction’. I had just watched a video where Tony Robbins spoke about the same thing, so I decided to look up the definition of this term ‘visceral’.
- Visceral: coming from strong emotions and not from logic or reason; medical : of or relating to the viscera
- Viscera is the plural of Viscus
- Viscus: an internal organ of the body; especially : one (as the heart, liver, or intestine) located in the great cavity of the trunk proper
The definition matched my experience.
It was a quick but also gradual physical reaction to emotion turmoil. What I mean is, it was after a long day of an all-day Kaizen locked in a room with the blinds drawn, with 9 other people that I began to experience the physical manifestations of stress.
Being 19 weeks pregnant, I have become accustomed to my body changing on a dime. However, this time, it was scary versus unfamiliar or uncomfortable.
I began to feel tired, then my body started to ache like my bones were being squeezed by my muscles, mostly in my arms and my chest. My neck began to feel tense, my jaw ached, my mouth became watery and I became nauseous. What in the heck!!
My to-do list of errands popped up in my mind as I passed possible stops on the drive home: dry cleaners, supermarket, etc.. But my mind and body were on one accord. GET HOME!!
I was over my capacity give. I had reached the point where I was operating from a seemingly empty vessel.
I immediately went home and went to sleep. It was 6.30pm.
The next day I went to my chiropractor’s office and told her about my experience. Her advice: process whatever was on my mind because it sounded as if I had, had a visceral experience.
When I reflected on the seven days prior, I realized that I hadn’t taken care of myself like I am accustomed to: no yoga, meditation, affirmations or journaling. Over the past 7 days, I had been flying to events, speaking with lawyers about moving out of my apartment, pouring into other people at my investment club’s annual meeting, fielding requests for help from family, coordinating baby shower and other baby preparations, and thinking about my next 6 trips currently scheduled before Baby Lovelace arrives.
GOOD GRIEF! I was over operating on empty.
My mind was swimming with a to-do list, which when I finally wrote it down took up 4 pages!!! 4 pages of stuff stuck in my brain!
I was overloaded, overwhelmed, and basically operating on EMPTY.
So, after I slept from about 6:30pm to 5:00am. I got out of bed, walked to my living room and got on my yoga mat. Perhaps the first time in 7 days. I did 10 minutes of yoga, meditated and then fell asleep on my yoga mat for another 30 minutes.
It was heavenly. I love my yoga mats.
I took the time to process or at least get my to-do list out of my head and get back to my wellness routine.
On one hand ,I hate when I let my body, mind, and spirit get to this point of reaction, on the other hand, I am glad that I listen to my body enough to course correct when I have exceeded my a capacity to give.
I had been stalling on making decisions. After yoga, I sent emails to end bad relationships and begin new fruitful one’s.
I had begun to feel self-conscious about speaking up in my meeting. After yoga, I realigned with my spiritual self and spoke my truth.
I had begun to lose control of the little negative voice in my head, focusing and worrying about all the things I didn’t want to happen. After yoga, I began to affirm the results I wanted to see in my life next.
I am grateful for the practice of yoga. I survived this experience, and will thrive going forward because I have the tools to make sure that I practice self-care on a daily basis. And I have the free will to choose to lift myself up rather than beat myself down if I’ve missed a day or seven 🙂
What are the tools you use to cope with feeling overwhelmed, stuck, over capacity, or just stressed? If you would like to speak with me about incorporating a yoga practice into your lifestyle send me an email to firstname.lastname@example.org or schedule a 30-minute complimentary strategy call at workwithdafina.com or just give me a call at 646-397-3256.